Thursday, January 13, 2011

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Last Blog

So basically we have one more week of Senior Comp which means that this is the last blog we have to do!!! Getting on this website every week has made me want to kill myslef. I never know what to talk aout and I feel like all I do is mumble on and on and on but I dont care anymore because this is the last one I will ever have to write for this class and hopefully in general. This class overall was fun and I enjoyed Bryan and Mr. Potter getting into debates everyday about college sports. I am going to miss doing my homework first period though. I will probably actually have to do most of my homework at home now. The vocab and the stupid blogs I will not miss at alll though :) Oh and this final project was easy except for the fact that I could not record my script so I will probably fail it!

Monday, December 20, 2010

break blogs

soooo basically im late on this blog anddd but then I rememberd how the people that did nottt do one or two are allowed to make them up. However, I do nottt remember you saying if we were allowed to make up a late grade. This is my first late blog this quarter and it would not be fair what so ever if you did not give me full credit. This is not me "complaining and making up excuses about not doing it" because I was on my laptop last night on facebook around 11 30 when I got home and totally forgot about blogging... for my english class... over OUR WINTER BREAK. Don't get me wrong, the fact that you are letting us make up some points that we either forgot to do or were just tooooo lazy to do is a very nice amazing sweet thing of my wonderful english teacher to do. I just would loveeee to be able to make up these points! Thanks you are theeee most amazingly generous bestttest teacher i have everrrr had!!!!!

loveee always, abby

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Shopping

So I finally went Christmas shopping this weekend with my sister for our mom and other sister. We obviously bought stuff for ourselves which made shopping even better! I bought a bunch of new tops and sweaters and a new pair of shoes. I also got scarves and tights and leggings! It was a lot of fun. We got our mom alot of new things as well! I can't wait for Christmas. We only have one more week of school until break and it is going to take forever but I am sooo excited for break!! Shopping for presents is the bestttt feeling ever and knowing that Santa is going to bring me stuff is so thrilling :)

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Love and Other Drugs

My friend turns 18 on Monday, so this weekend was her birthday weekend! It was alot of fun! Friday, we went to the basketball game then went out. Saturday, we went to the movies and saw Love and Other Drugs. I saw Mr. Potter at Easton.. buying food.. probably for his girlfriend even though he doesn't believe in relationships. The movie was amazing!! It is one of my all-time favorites now. I laughed and cried and it was just the sweetest story overall. After the movie, the four of us went to a friends house and hung out! I got one hour of sleep last night so all I'm going to do is today is sleep and watch tv!

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Prince Charming

Prince Charming

Ever since I was a little girl, I have wanted to be swept away by a guy, just like in Cinderella. Cinderella always made me dream about how one day I would meet the “perfect” guy and we would fall madly in love. Well, it turns out that the prince in Cinderella is only in the story. He is not anywhere to be found in my world. Now that I am 17-years-old, I have realized that there is no such thing as the “perfect” guy. However, every time I watch a movie that is a love story, I think that there is a guy out there that is “perfect”. But then I think to myself, no one, and no guy is perfect.
The perfect guy in my eyes is the one who will someday be my husband. He is the guy that I would do anything for and would hopefully do anything for me. Women now-a-days think that they have a “type”. They think that some random guy is going to solve all of their unfortunately terrible problems. I think that if someone looks for what they think the “perfect” guy is, they lose themselves in the process. Ever guy I have ever been in a relationship with has proven to be the exact opposite of what I want. I do not know what I want exactly yet. I want someone who is going to love me for me. I want to have the greatest love affair that world will ever know. A few things a girl looks for in a guy are: respectful, honest, intelligent, consistent with what they do and say, caring, and well put together. I know how ridiculous that sounds, but until I find the guy that is my prince, I will continue to look for him.
Growing up, my dad was one of my best friends. He was the “perfect” guy in my eyes. I knew that I wanted to find a guy that was just like him. My parent’s always seemed like they could not be any happier. I wanted a family just like ours after I grew up and got married. However, as it turns our, what I though was so perfect about my dad was completely wrong. He is not perfect nor was he perfect. He is as far from perfect as a husband can be. I remember when my mom sat my sisters and me down and told us that my dad and she were getting divorced. She told us then and is still telling us, “It’s not your fault girls. It is between your father and I. Please don’t think any differently of your dad or of men.” Cheating on the person you are in a relationship with is one of the worst things I can think of that someone can do. Well, the sad part about reality is that it happens to people just like you and me. Watching my mom cry for weeks because of what my dad did to her is something I never want to go through or see my kids go through. So, I have come to the conclusion that love will find its way.
Love is a strong word. Saying “I love you” to someone else is a huge deal. I want to be able to tell someone that I love them one day. But I want to be in love, not just love them. I do not want to be played like a guy like my mom was and like so many of my friends have been. I want to fall deeply and madly in love, like in my favorite movies. Love is only a chapter is a guy’s life; but to a girl, it’s the whole book. I want to one day meet a guy that does not consider it to be just a chapter in his life. Part of me wants to believe in love at first sight, but then another part of me wants to tell myself that there is no such thing as love at first sight. Falling in love with someone else is one of the few amazing feelings you will ever experience. Trusting a guy is going to take everything I have, but I know that when I meet the “perfect” guy for me, nothing else will matter.
Cinderella always made me dream about how one day I would meet the “perfect” guy and we would fall madly in love. Well, it turns out that the prince in Cinderella is only in the story. But then I think to myself, no one, and no guy is perfect. The “perfect” guy to me is someone I will only find once in my lifetime. He will love me for me and I will trust him with my entire life. Until you date a couple “frogs”, you will never be able to find your true prince charming. Every girl’s prince charming is going to be different than the girls next to them. After a while you learn the difference between holding a hand and falling in love, you begin to learn that kisses do not always mean something; promises can be broken as quickly as they were made and sometimes, goodbyes really are forever. Prince charming does not exist outside of books and movies. However, if you let love take its course, you will eventually find your won prince charming.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Job

So Friday I found out that I got a job!! I got hired at American Eagle! I am soooo excited. It is one of my favorite clothing stores, so getting a job there is amazing! And the best part is that I fet 40 percent off all the stuff there. I had sooo much fun Friday night. Then I Saturday, I went over to my aunts house and hung out for a little bit with my cousins and his friends. Then I saw the movie, Morning Glory with my aunt. It was such a cute chick flick movie. I laughed and cried and just had alot of fun with my aunt. We went to Chipotle after the movie which made the night even better. Today I worked on this stupid rough draft for this class! I watched three movies before I finally finished the essay. And I am currently watching the American Music Awards as I am typing this. And I have to say that Miley Cyrus is not a singer. She is terrible!!

Friday, November 19, 2010

Sunday, November 14, 2010

volleyball game

So today I had to go play in an all-district game at New Albany, because I got awarded first team all-district. We had to be there at 1 30 to have a two hour practice. Then after we practiced we ate pizza which was Eagles pizza... shich if you dont know what that is, youre missing out! Because it is amazinggg!! Then after we ate we had to warm up and play the 12 girls that got awarded first team all-district in division 2. We kicked there butts! I played with and against girls that were on my club team. It was alot of fun and not as awkward as I thought it would be since there were 11 other girls on my team that I didnt play high school ball with! Now I am just excited for club season since the high school season was the worst season ever!!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Banquet

We had our volleyball banquet today. I'm not exactly sad that the season is over. What I'm sad about is that I am done. I am done with playing volleyball at the high school level forever. I am done playing with my best friend. I am done having a terrible coaching staff. But what I am excited for is getting the chance to meet all of the girls that over the four years together became my sisters. I love them all so mucha dn tonight at the banquet made me realize how much we all have in common. Sitting there listen to my coach talk about the seniors and how we have all grown over the past four years and how we are individuals that make up an amazing senior class. I am so happy to be done, however at the same time, I am really upset because I know that I will eventually grow apart from all of the girls because we won't see eachother as much. But I know that the banquet was more of a celebration of what we accoplished, it wasn't suposed to be a sad time. Looking back on my four years playing for the team, I learned so much about myself and how to better my knowledge on and off the court. I relaized that life doesn't always have to revolve around volleyball. Overall, the banquet was a great success and I am so glad to have been a part of something that kept me going through some hard times in my life. Volleyball will always be my passion. I love it way too much to just let go.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

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Sunday, October 31, 2010

Cedar Point

I went to cedar point on Saturday for the Halloween thing. I went with my friends evan, mike, and taylor. It wasnt as cold as I thought it would be, but it was very cold. We were there from about 2 to midnight! It was sooo much fun! The first thing we went on was the Drop Tower, it was a good start to the day! I was so mad though, because we didnt get to ride the Dragster. It kept breaking down and when we were going to finally ride it, it got closed again. We didnt have time at the end to go on it which made me so mad! After going out to the car, we convinced Mike to buy us all starbucks and some food. So after eating, we rode some more rides. We waited in line for the Millenium for about and hour and a half because Mike read the time wrong. He thought it said a 30 minute wait, but it actually said an hour and a half wait. I hate waiting in line so much to ride a roller coaster. I have the worst patience. However, it wasnt too bad! A guy a couple people in front of us was smoking weed so that was very entertaining. And as we were waiting in line, we just made fun of people to pass the time. We quickly noticed that theeeee weirdest people go to cedar point. There was a guy that looked just like Napoleon Dynamite, like exactly identical. It was very strange. He even talked and acted like him.

After it got dark, we started going to the haunted houses and the forests. They were extremely creepy. We went through one called CornStalkers. I had nightmares about it lest night. People hid in the corn stalks and jumped out when you walked by them. I wanted to start crying. I just looked at the ground the entire time, because I was too scared. Taylor talked to all of the people that were supposed to be scaring us when they walked by us or tried to jump out. It was making all of them soooo mad which made it kinda funny. The last one we went to was all CarnEvil. It was by fair, the scariest haunted house or haunted anything I have ever been too. Ever since I watched "It" in like fifth grade I have had the worsttt fear of clowns. I hate them more than anything. I freak out everytime I see one. So when we walked up to the haunted walk through that was filled with clowns, I almost peed my pants. It was by far that worst experience I have ever had on halloween. Evan and Mike enjoyed pushing me into the clowns and seeing me run the other direction. They made me walk first. I started walking and then made Taylor go in front of me. She then made Evan go first so I felt alot better about the whole situation. We got home at 3 in the morning and passed out. Overall the trip was so much fun!

Friday, October 22, 2010

When Is It Over?

You do not have to forgive in order to move on. Forgiving takes love and time. Moving on takes time as well, however, it only involves forgetting, not forgiving the person at fault. One of my favorite quotes about forgiveness is, “It takes a second to make a mistake, but a lifetime to try and forget it was your fault.”

It has been a little over a year now when my mom pulled into the vacant parking lot at an elementary school by our house to tell my 14 year-old sister at the time and I about the divorce. I was sitting there in the passenger seat, sobbing uncontrollably, listening to her talk about how it has been going on for a couple months. She had just found out a couple weeks earlier by accidently reading through emails which made me sick to my stomach. She completely opened up to us. I think it was the first time when she had cried about it in front of people. I had heard her cry herself to sleep a couple times before because of him, but I never knew what it was about. She told us about how she found three tracking devices on our van. He followed her places after she left work to meet up with friends before coming home. She repeated over and over again, “girls I want you to know how he is still your dad and he has always treated you with love and respect and you need to do the same now.” But as she was telling us that I was sitting there thinking to myself, “how could he, how could he tear apart the best thing that has ever happened to him? Or so he says we are.” He quickly turned into an unforgivable person.

My dad is the best dad anyone could ever have. Has been to every play, game, and activity my sisters and I have been involved in. A devoted husband on the other hand, is not something he knows how to be. Their marriage was falling apart piece by piece. Turns out he had been cheating on my mom for months without anyone knowing. I have learned over the years that sometimes “sorry” is not enough. Sometimes you actually have to change.

I did not talk to him for weeks. I did not answer any of his phone calls or emails. I erased every text he sent me without even opening them. I could not stand looking at him. After continuing this for about two months, I went into my church to talk to my priest about it. He, of course told me to talk to God about it and pray for help to forgive him. It was the first person besides my mom and sisters and close friends that talked to about it. That’s when I realized that the sermons he gives on Sundays really do relate to me. Sobbing for hours in the church pew made me reflect on how I was letting his terrible and unforgivable choice get in between our father-daughter bond.

To me, our bond will never be the same. It has been a little over a year and I know that I am not even close to forgiving him. Moving on so that I can continue with my life is the most important priority to me right now. I know that eventually forgiving him is going to be the most amazing feeling. All I want my dad to do is realize what he did was devastating to our relationship. He still acts as if nothing ever happened. I think that I will truly forgive him when he talks to me and is 100 percent honest. I want him to tell me why he did it and why he lied so many times to my mom and me. If he ever finally does that, I will hopefully be able to fully move on and forgive him. I want him to understand that no matter how many times you say you’re sorry it will not wash away all the pain and hurt you caused and the tears you made me cry.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

response

Abby said...
Thats really cool Jordan! I feel like Wittenburg is so close, but I hope your other college votes go well! I'm going to Akron next Friday :)